Destroyer BC

Well well well, It's definitely time for an update.

Basically what can I say? My life has changed for the better. I've finally got this new band off the ground :) 

I'm dedicating everything I have to this band and hopefully it will work out for us.

I'm a happy person aswell at the moment. A few things are starting to get at me but I'm sure focusing on more important stuff will get me past all the bullshit.

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Dream notes.

Basically I feel I need to blog this because it's struck me as really fucking odd.

Last night was Christmas eve right... Most people dream about really nice stuff on this night of all nights. Not Me.

I had a dream I was locked in a hotel room with a bat and nothing else (as far as I was aware) and I was a full blown murderer. Every time a maid tried to enter the room I would get my bat wait for her head to appear round the door and then I would do a jabbing motion into her temple and crush her head against the wall. I could even feel the skull crush under the weight of my blows. THEN There was Pinhead strapped to one iron bed and then another killer on another but he had his arm free with some type of weapon in his hand. Pinhead told me how to throw shards of sheet metal like ninja stars at this guy to kill him. I only got a him a few times and didn't kill him though which I found odd.

The weirdest part about this dream was that I enjoyed the killing and it felt almost like a game/game show. 

God knows what's going on in my head but I know one thing's for sure... I need a real dream analyst to tell me about it haha

x

9 months.

Today I found out my brother and his partner are going to be parents. This put an automatic smile onto my face and it hasn't left since. I can't describe how happy I am for the pair of them at this moment in time. 

Becoming an uncle is going to be one of the best moments in my entire life. 

<3

Passing.

Death is something I could never cope with easily, Even if it doesn't affect me first hand.

To give life is one thing, To have it taken away is another.

Atheist.

mind/reality.

Sometimes I sit for hours just thinking about how my life would be if I didn't do certain things. This is one of the stupidest things I do now. Just sitting around regretting my life when I should just get over it and move along the line. It's even gotten to the point where it's really small things that are petty.

Life is what you make it, I've made mine hard so now I've got to deal with it.

 

Everything is just confusing now. My brain can't focus on what's happening at this moment in time. I just keep shunning important things like money problems off to the side and I know for a fact that they will all come and get me the hard way. I just don't care though at the minute. Why should I care? Nobody else looks like they're taking their lives too seriously! And if they are they're doing a good job at covering it up.

 

Drowning.

Everytime i think life is going up, I come crashing back down.

I'm fucking drowning at the minute.

I'm dead to the world.